so I failed .....
You may have noticed that it has been around a week since I last posted anything or been around social media.
The reason is that I failed. I failed to listen to my own advice, I didn't protect the asset, I didn't try to control the controllables.
I let work and personal stuff get on top of me and I burnt myself out, leading to the mother of all migraines that wiped me out for nearly 4 days.
Why am I sharing this? Well 3 main reasons:
It's okay to fail it how you bounce back that is important
I hope that you will learn from my mistake and not let it happen to you
So I can admit it, log it, learn from it and move forward
So why did I ignore the advice I freely provide to others? What was I not doing?
Well I stopped putting my needs on my backlog, or if they were on there I de-prioritised them in favour of things I could nothing about.
Looking back the week off I had where I felt re-energised was just a sticky plaster to a issue that was bubbling under the surface. I still put the needs of my family and my work above my needs, I stopped exercising so I could fit in work and family commitments. I didn't realise how detrimentally this was impacting my mental health along with my physical health.
So now my personal mission is clear:
Take and make time for me,
go to bed and get up early to go for that run or cycle
cut out the caffeine crutch
set realistic targets
learn to say no